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(report #2)
(uses the sama letters as Yureva
Ekaterina from Magadan; Elena
Baranova (peachy@mabuta.com)
from
Nizhni Tagil
Tatyana Solovyova
(tanya@eshche.net)
from Tomsk, Russia; Olga Smirnova from Kostroma, Russia)
Pskov, Russia
Subject: Hi from far Pskov!
From: Anastasiya <swallow@etabank.com>
Date: Thu, 25 Aug 2005 17:44:22 +0400
Hi, Tom
I cannot explain to you in words on how you have made me feel inside.
You have made my days sunny, the colors I see brighter, and the
thought of you has made me happy. It seems like nothing bothers me now. I just
think of you and my problems go away. I know we have only know each other for a
short time, but I feel a connection to you. I hope that you feel the same.
I can be a little eccentric at times especially when it comes to describing my feeling.
I am very glad that you have written me. Thank you very much. I like your letters
very much and wait for them every day. It is very pleasant for me, to answer your letters.
We have all 4 seasons. I like autumn in Pskov. Yellow leaves, gold trees. It is so wonderful to walk in
the park and to listen how leaves rustle under feet, and to feel in the air the smell
of arriving winter. And clouds floating in the sky; and birds are departing to the
warm grounds. And at night the sky begins to cry. The rain knocks on windows and roofs.
A lightning illuminates for shares of second the empty streets. It is fine. In such
weather it would be desirable to appear in a small room with a warm fireplace. Weak
light and singing of a cricket. And if near there will be a beloved - it will be
paradise. How you think Tom? What can be finer than romantic evening in
rainy day? I at all do not know what season I like more. As well as all people, I wait
for the summer in the winter, and in the summer I wait for the winter.
All the world around is white. Only fur-trees with the green clothes heat a look.
And falls of snow bewitches. Especially in the evening.
Flows of light from a window, and on a background of black sky, small snowflakes are
similar to stars. If during this moment for a long time you look at the sky - it
seems that you flies through these wonderful snowflakes towards something unknown.
I like spring in Pskov. The world as though is born again. Air is filled with
freshness. All troubles and failures thawed together with snow. The sounds of the baby
birds chirping for the first time. Summer is a fine mood, the desire to learn the world,
to have a rest and enjoy life. I feel that I rambling on. Forgive me. Simply now I have
romantic mood.
Now, I will go back to thinking about you in my mind and in my heart and
wait impatiently until I find you again in my mailbox (SMILE)!
Sincerely, Anastasiya.
Subject: Hi my dear Tom!
From: Anastasiya <swallow@etabank.com>
Date: Fri, 2 Sep 2005 19:54:25 +0400
Hi, my far, but dear friend Tom.
Many thanks for your letter. It was the long-awaited letter. I am
really madly glad to receive your letter. I am really glad that I have
found you. Please, READ ATTENTIVELY THIS LETTER, and try understand me
as it is possible better.
Tom you are starting to get a hold of my heart all is closer and
closer but please just dont break my heart .
I should tell to you that I have ocean of emotions and sensations
which I had no in my heart before. And on this, my reason and my heart say
me that I should answer by sincerity your constant sincerity. My heart and
my reason says me that I should tell what I feel now because it is a part
of our friendship and I should share it with you. I should tell that it
was required some days to think over this letter, because I
wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want to offend or
upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying something wrong
may do that. I normally speak directly from my heart, and I am right now,
but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. I feel somewhat lost when I
have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I
feel contentment and joy when I think of you.
I have never done this in my life, (tried to initiate a relationship
halfway across the world), and I might have much to learn about how to
proceed, but I am more than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed
if that is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the
best friends possible, which trust and share with each other everything
that they feel. I do not know if my word and thoughts make sense to you,
and I try very hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and
understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through
trials to prepare me for meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of
my life loving, to better appreciate him, respect him and cherish the
love, that he would give; only asking that I return the same. I hope that
my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than
mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you.
I very much desire that you find it in your heart and are comfortable with
sharing your personal feelings with me, I wish to know you on a more
intimate level, I would like you to share your dreams, your hopes, your
feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level
that goes way beyond mere friendship......Probably it is love? All in
comparison with you is insignificant, that it is practically impossible for
me not to fall in love with you. Please do not think me foolish for
thinking these things, I believe that in order for anything to succeed,
you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you
close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we
could share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. I
really believe that dreams do come true for people which dare to believe
in dreams, because if they believe in them hard enough, dreams could
become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this way, but
here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something
that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual
feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I hope that I am
not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with
you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to
say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten
something important that I wanted to share with you. Tom, when I
speak of you and I think of you, it does not matter for me what anyone
else thinks. I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I mean, I
find that you are not only attractive as a man, I also speak of the beauty
that is within you, beauty of your internal world, and alas, this
particular type of beauty is very special and rare. Most men have only
appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is.
This, is that for me is the most important and significant in all limits
of my character, my soul and my consciousness. Your words spoken to me
with so much kindness and care, they express the beauty within you. I
think that you are truly handsome, the essence of what beauty should be,
and there is nothing that anyone could say to me that would compel to
change my mind even a little bit. I want to reduce essence of all my
letter only to one thought. I do not know if I could clearly explain all
my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell
that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our
friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose
a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple
friendship. It is that way which I feel. As always I hope that my letter
finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that every yours wish you
have comes true one day. I will look forward to your reply as always with
anticipation and impatience....
I hope that your reply is not of a harsh nature, and I look
forward to its arrival.
With tenderness, Anastasiya.
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